suddenly..i miss you so much..

it is 1:30 in the morning already..
sweetie..
i suddenly..
miss you..
so much..

SUMMER SECHEDULE

April 20-24
OB LECTURE

April 25-26
make up duty

April 27-30
MDH 5A: 2-10PM
call time: 1:15pm

May 4-8
CHN MUNTINLUOPA: 6AM-2PM
call time: 5am

May 11-15
CD LECTURE

May 17-19
SPH CAVITE: 6AM-6PM
call time: 4:45am

FINAL IS OVER!

i am so "proud" of myself that i haven't update my blog for 5 months!
oh..so sorry for my backyard, it must be mess enough when i throw you back of my mind these days. Anyway, it is time to clean you up.
Remind of these pass three months, it is full of challenges, risks, exciting, touching, depressing and thanksful. It is what i remember that i cried a lot during my third year in the high school because of the extremely stressful on studying, so i thought i would never cried then because i already suffered the most difficult time. However, i am making laugh for what i thought at that time, it is childish, but innocent. Actually, i cried more during these three months: the stressful of studying, complicated human relationship, multifarious daily issues and unbalance lovingship..Somtimes, i just want to jump out of my balcony that it will end my life quickly, but miss said: don't do that, because it is not high enough and you may still alive! Alright, undoubted,so, just forget this stupid impulsion.
whatever, i just want to tell you something truth: even you are getting big trouble, God's mercy still around you always. One God now and forever, Amen!
Finally, i want to say, the final examinations are over! woooow..
Tomorrow.. i will start practicing my philipino..
Cheer up, lu..you can make it!
Miss Juaymah..maraming salamat po!^^

Thankssssss

Everything is going well...

thanks God..

thanks sister bernie..

thanks those who give me support these days..

i will work harder and practice more in this coming semester...

i have faith i can do it!

only time will tell...

What can i do....

I prayed hard before i went to the kiosk to check my grade..but it seems useless..
God didn't accept my message..
Why would i receive an "imcomplete" remark in my major subjuct?? Why can't i know my grade even if it is low?? Why nursing dean sisiter bernie would be the one to tell my grade??
Every body is guessing..but nobody can exactly tell me what happened..
i still should wait..to wait for 4 days.
These two days, i try to control my mind to stop guessing, however, i find out that even in my dream, i am still thinking about it..
Somebody said, it will be fine, sisiter is kind as long as you open your heart to talk to her sincerely.She will consider your situation. Somebody said. you are meeting a problem, and not a simple problem, you'd better have a prepare if sisiter insists on kicking you out from the program, she is strict and always follow the rules after all...
To be honest, i can't image if i can't stay in the nursing program, what can i do..
shift course? transfer to other school?
I know, I know nursing course is difficult, expecially for the foreign students who come from the second English speaking country..But I really want to study nusring here nomatter how many years i can graduate..i just want to learn something what i like during my college time, in my favorite school..
Sister, what are you thinking about??What's your desicion?? i hope i can meet you soon..